Joyless?

Now what have I done! We're a week in and I find myself asking this question already. Hopefully it's just first week jitters. You know, getting the hang of the new place. I'm sure it is. Right? I find myself detesting the reception desk. It's not the people or the doctors, but it only took a day or so for me to remember why I have been working so hard the last 5 or so years to be in managment and to get my billing and coding degree. I'd much rather be behind the scenes, doing my own thing. I guess I knew it was coming. I knew ther'd be some reception involved, however, everyday is a little much. I knew I was being hired as the Front Office Manager, I just didn't know that I am the front office. I manage myself, and any other of my personalities that come with me that day. I thought it was hard being three people before, I had no idea of what was coming. The grass is not always greener.....However there are still a few flowers in the field. There are many good things to my job. I'll let you know when they come to me. ;)

On to bigger and better! My, excuse me, my mom and sister's wedding is fast approaching. That sounds hateful doesn't it. I don't mean it to, but that's what it feels like. Every idea I have is not good enough or not as good as something else could be. Such as their idea. I guess in the long run it's fine, because I really don't care one way or the other. All that matters is I'm getting married to the most incredible guy of the face of the earth. And our life together starts in 7 weeks and 4 days. Just because it's going to start in a tule covered sanctuary with tule covered pew bows, that were fine before we glue-gunned them, and tule-covered candlabra's, doesn't really matter in the whole scheme of things. At least I put my foot down about the names spelled out in tule on the lattice work at the reception. Good Lord!! Was she serious? Who was I kidding when I thought my wedding would be stress free? Oh well, I'm sure it will be beautiful no matter what and the point of the day is not decorations, it's two people becoming one. wrapped in tule.......

posted by Alie @ 9:14 AM